I kept a jar of promises on the mantle, gold and thin as lies We traded kisses like pennies, then watched the good luck die You slammed the door on Sunday, friends took sides like throwing bones I learned to stitch a silence where a softer song had grown I counted out the syllables that made your name sound false Wore my cause like a corset, laughed until the guilt took hold I brewed a bitter charm and let it sit a while Watched it darken in my palms, then smiled that dangerous smile Change of heart, so sorry—no, I’m not to blame I let the lantern gutter when the price was too damn great Quarrels left like footprints on the velvet of our years You called me reckless with my thunder, I called you childish fears Friends whispered in the parlor—recipes for who’s to blame I poured my trust out in the garden and watched the winter claim There’s a pang that wakes me midnight—conscience like a bell Rings across the ruins of the faith I used to sell I brewed a bitter charm and fed it with our lies Feathered it with apologies, tied it neat with alibis Change of heart, confession—yeah, the blame tastes like ash I let the doorway close because I feared the aftermath Oh, darling, love’s a ledger—every favor, every slight I wasn’t prepped for interest and the debt came overnight You wanted rescue wrapped in armor; I wanted tidy lights So I priced my fear at coin too heavy, and I walked out of sight Forgive me for the candle I snuffed when I thought it’d burn my hand Forgive the coward’s comfort—the softest socket I could stand I brewed a bitter charm and watched it do its work It taught me how to loosen ties without admitting I was hurt Change of heart, a quiet verdict on a love we couldn’t pay I let an altar cool because the offering cost too much to stay So keep your silver grievances, your vows wrapped in string and thorn I’ll keep a tidy little tombstone for the chance I left to mourn Call me witch, call me wilted—call me anything but brave I chose the safer darkness and let our wild heart cave
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